Friday, March 16, 2012

"I Don't Believe In Myself"

This week’s excuse on Biggest Loser was “I don’t believe in myself.”  This one definitely resonates with me.  I have a lot of problems finding faith in myself and believing I’m actually capable of success.  I have a lot of difficulty believing that I am worthy of that success…of achieving my goals and what I’ve set out to do. 

I want nothing more than to succeed, but if I’m going to actually succeed, I really do need to believe in myself.  It’s just not going to be possible if I don’t think I can do it.  I have to be my own biggest fan.  I don’t have much of a support system in person, so I have to support myself.  The one person that could support me in person feels frustrated when I talk about my exercise and about all my progress that I’m making because she wants to lose weight too but can’t seem to get anything to work for her.  I don’t live with her, so I can’t testify as to whether or not she’s committing herself to her efforts 100%.  I can only take her at her word that she is.  I think she may fall into the small percentage of people who start a program and don’t see any results for the first 2-3 weeks and by then, she’s given up, calling it hopeless.  I feel for her, I really do.

I have been 90% successful thus far.  With the exception of this past week, I’ve shown nothing but losses on the scale, even if it was only .6 of a pound.  But I’ve lost upwards of 5 pounds in just one week.  I’m hoping to renew my efforts this week after the non-productive week I had last week and see a loss on the scale again.  I’m highly tempted to call last week a bad week, but it wasn’t bad.  I exercised more than ever, which is great.  Sure I binged, but it really wasn’t as bad as I want to make it out to be.  It was about 1000 calories over my calorie limit for the particular day.  Sure that was almost twice what I eat in one day, but it was still only about 1000 calories.  I was still within the calories that I would eat to maintain my weight.  So I’m really thinking it was a biological reason for my backslide.  In which case, there is nothing I could have really done to achieve different results on my weigh in on Sunday.

I have to believe in myself.  I really do.  And I have to do more than try, I have to actually DO it.  If I don’t support myself, why should anyone else?  If I don’t believe in myself, then there’s no point in trying because I will only undermine myself time after time. 

1 comment:

  1. I believe in you every day. I think that struggles come and go, and this is the hardest thing we will every do for ourselves in our lives, but we must remember. We are totally worth it. You are worth it. Love you!


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