So, I’ve been feeling a little “blah-ze-blah” lately. For about 2 months now, it’s been getting steadily more and more serious. At first, it was just I would get up at my designated time of 7:30 or 8am without a problem and then I would just lounge on the couch for longer and longer times. Then it morphed into me sleeping later, until about 8:30 or 9am and then still lounging on the couch until about 10 or 10:30am, or even as late as 11am sometimes. Now, I’m staying in bed until 10 or sometimes 11am, therefore sometimes completely “missing” my workout for the day. I only do that on gym days because I don’t want to fall behind on my running mileage, so I refuse to skip a run day. However, just because I don’t skip it doesn’t mean I don’t wait until the last possible second to head out the door, which is exactly what I’ve been doing the last few weeks. And it’s getting on my nerves.
Another thing that’s been happening lately and has been getting worse is my eating. Thankfully I’m a runner or I’d be gaining some serious weight. Instead, I’ve stayed at the exact same weight for over 2 months now. It’s very frustrating, but I can’t complain about it because I’m doing it to myself. But as I’m eating all this food, I feel powerless to stop myself from doing it. It’s not true, but it’s how I feel it.
I called my psychiatrist and made an appointment to review my medication dosage with him. I’m having a general lack of motivation and running is starting to feel like a “chore” and I do NOT want that. Running is something that is FUN for me and I want it to stay that way because I want to be running for years and years and then some more years after that.
I’m wondering if this slump that I’m in has anything to do with the amount of overtime I’ve been working at work. I’ve been working anywhere from 8 hours up to 24 hours of overtime each week for the past few months. I’m wondering if I might not be a little burnt out. Most likely, it’s a mixture of being burnt out with the work schedule I’ve been keeping and my medication not being *as* effective anymore. I’m hoping that my doctor will see the need for a slight increase in my dosage when I see him on Monday morning and that within a week of starting the slightly higher dose, I’ll be back to my normal “having no problem waking up and being motivated” self.