Sunday, September 1, 2013

Regaining What I've Lost

So, I weighed in this morning...like I promised I would.  I've done some damage, to say the least.  The good news is that it could have been worse...also, it can be "fixed."  I gained 6.2 lbs in August because I didn't try, because I lost my focus, because I let the stress get to me, because I half gave up, because because because.  Bottom line is, it's my fault, I did it to myself and now I have to remedy it.  It really sucks because it took me 2 months to lose that 6 lbs, but only 1 month to gain it back.  Ugh.  I have to make myself stick to my food plans and I have to do my best to make my daily workouts happen.  I just have to.  If I want to succeed, I don't have a choice.  I have to say "no" to free food.  I really don't understand my "inability" to say no when offered free food.  I mean, well, I guess I kind of understand it, but I don't understand why I can't have the confidence to just say "no, I don't need it but thank you for offering."  I don't say no because I don't want to offend the person offering the food, but really, they would understand and just ask someone else.  It's a mental block that I need to work myself thru.  So, wish me luck as I buckle down and try to regain what I have lost and get back on track.

3 comments:

  1. Aye, free food is tough for me too! When there's something I like in our lunchroom at work for everyone to share, I can't help but eat it...

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    1. i'm just going to take it one day at a time. if i try to focus on more than one day at a time, i'll get overwhelmed and be more likely to binge. i hate that i will always battle with my binge and disordered eating problems. i wish i could just conquer it and be done with it. but it will always be there. like any addict, i will have to fight to control it.

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  2. it is brave of you to share your journey, and to tell others of your struggles. we all struggle. we all will get there, with focus and determination. as long as it is what we want, and we are willing to sacrifice, we will get there. its only a matter of time.

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