Every
day I get to work about 30 minutes early and sit in my car and scroll
through my Instagram feed. I follow a bunch of cats and a bunch of
fitness minded people. Some of those
fitness minded people have lost a substantial amount of weight and are
living an amazingly healthy and happy life and these are my role
models. These are the people I look up to. One these people in
particular, lvnfit, has lost 150-ish pounds. So much that
she had to have skin removal surgery. She looks aaaaa-mazing. She
always posts her workouts and what she’s eating. Some day when I have
nothing else to do, I need to go to her Instagram and write down all the
recipes for the stuff she eats and model my
diet after what she eats. I’d also like to do some of her workouts.
I
know I’ve written about this a couple times recently, but I REALLY need
to get motivated again and relose this 20-ish pounds I’ve regained
since last August. I don’t know why I
haven’t been able to get my butt in gear yet. I have the desire, but
the motivation isn’t coming around. I think part of it is the amount of
overtime I do at work and that when I have the time to sleep in, I take
it and then skip doing strength training
workouts. And I did finally get my work friend to bring the P90X discs
in that he gave me, so I have those workouts that I can do as well.
And I really like the P90X workouts…just not the YogaX…I hate that
workout. If I’m going to do yoga, I do Bob Harper’s
Yoga for the Warrior. I LOOOOOOOOVE that workout. Speaking of
P90X…when I did the program a year and a half ago, by the time I was
done, I could do 5 pull ups on my pull up bar I installed in my bedroom
doorway. I tried to do a pull up the other day. No
go. I got about halfway up and crapped out. Ugh.
So
much is just plain frustrating to me right now. Top of the list is, of
course, my lack of motivation to change. Second is when I think of all
the strength I’ve lost over the
last 8 months. You would think that buying 2 new super cute bikinis
that I actually want to wear would do something for my motivation, but
nooooooo…nothing. You would also think that the plethora of bad photos
of me from the races I’ve done recently where
I have thunder thighs and fat lumps on my hips and a spare tire around
my middle would give me a nice kick, but again, noooooooooooo…nada. Why
am I like this?!?!?!?!?! I suppose I should really seriously consider
getting some kind of therapy. And I do plan
to, but I can’t really afford it until the beginning of the next fiscal
year when I have money in my flexible spending account to pay for the
copays. But that’s so far away!!!! Ugh!!! Yet another frustration for
me.
I
got the word from my supervisor that my June vacation for my trip to
Oregon is approved. So, when I got home from work the other night I
went to the website for the half marathon
I’m going to run while I’m in Oregon and REGISTERED!!! Then, I went to
the website for the hotel that has a deal with the half marathon and is
offering discounted rates to participants and reserved my room for the
night before the race. I’m so excited!
I posted on my personal Facebook for my Oregon friends to message me so
we can make our plans for while I’m there. I can’t wait to see my
friends and family! My brother has expressed interest in taking me out
for a trail run or “other coolness” while I’m
there, so I’m looking forward to that.
I’ve
already made plans with some friends for while I’ll be there. I still
have some open time that hasn’t been filled by any meet ups yet. I
spent some time at work the other day
deciding what days I want to run on. So far, I think I’ve decided on 7
days (that includes the half marathon) that I want to run while I’m
there. I want to make one of those the trail run with my brother and
another one a buddy run with my friend Kamala…who
I need to email so that we can make those plans.
I no longer have the obligation to be back in Texas by 5pm on the 13th.
So, I first thought that, hey, I can stay in Oregon 2 more days than
originally planned…but then
I was like, ooooo! I can go to Crater Lake and the Grand Canyon on my
way back to Texas instead! So, that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going
to get up with my parents on the morning of the 11th, go for a
run, shower, pack up the car, go drop the
house key off to my mom at her work, and then find somewhere yummy to
get some breakfast then I’ll make the 3.5-ish hour drive to Crater Lake
where I’ll spend a couple hours walking around and taking photos. After
that, I’ll start heading in the direction
of the Grand Canyon. I’ll get a hotel room near it and in the morning,
I’ll go for a quick 2 or 3 mile run (just an out-and-back), take a
shower and head to the Grand Canyon. Again, I’ll spend a couple hours
walking around and taking photos, then I’ll hit
the road and start the final leg back to Texas.
In
happy news, the photos from the Sunshine Run finally became available.
In not so happy news, they are not free downloads as their comment
about photos being posted on their Facebook
page soon led me to believe they would be. Boo! There was 9 photos of
me and all but one were basically horrible. My thighs looking
incredibly
fat thick, my stomach resembled a spare tire…they just weren’t
pretty. I ended up going with one of my finishing photos, very similar
to the photo I chose from last year’s BunRun 10K (as previously
mentioned in another post, the Sunshine Run is taking
the place of the BunRun by taking over its annual time slot and it’s
course route) and they had the same photographer for the Sunshine Run as
the BunRun used last year. So, as soon as I receive the photo I
purchased in the mail (a hardcopy is a few bucks
cheaper than a digital download), I’ll post it on here. I’ll also be
putting together my scrapbook page for the Sunshine Run when I get it
and will be posting a picture of that as well.
I
worked double (16 hour) shifts the last couple days. Ugh. So
exhausting, even though the work isn’t all that strenuous. The fact
that I’m only getting about 5 hours of sleep
for 2 days in a row is what really takes it out of me. That’s why I
really try not to do back-to-back double shifts, but if that’s what I
can get for overtime, then I’ll take it. But, I prefer not to do that.
Monday
my eating was generally not good. I ate bbq sausage, mac and cheese
and cake. Oops. Tuesday my eating was mostly good. I ate a blueberry
scone from Starbuck’s and a bunch
of broccoli that wasn’t on my food list for the day…but what’s wrong
with some extra broccoli? Wednesday, I stopped at Starbuck’s on the way
to work again and got another blueberry scone. I also took some extra
broccoli to nosh on if I got snacky/hungry.
So, not too bad overall.
It’s
difficult for me to make it through a boring overnight shift because
I’m counting down every 2 hours when I eat. I’m definitely an emotional
and a boredom eater, so this is
especially difficult for me as I only bring a certain amount of food
with me. And, as it’s boredom eating urges I’m having, I’m not actually
hungry.
Tomorrow,
I plan to do either a P90X workout or the jump box workout in the
morning before work. Then, Saturday, I’ll do the Stand Up 5K in the
morning and, in the afternoon…or maybe
as soon as I get home, we’ll see how I feel…I want to go for an 8-10
mile bike ride and then whatever I don’t do tomorrow morning, I’ll do
after the bike ride. Sunday, I have 8 miles after dark scheduled. If I
get bored in the afternoon, I might head to
the gym and swim until I’m exhausted. I really, really need to start
adding more variety to my workouts. In the past, during efforts to lose
weight, I have ALWAYS been more successful when my workouts were
varied.
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